Abolition, Chapter 1: Burning Love Alive
I killed the villian.
Burnt him alive.
I saw him finally have pain in his eyes.
I killed the hero.
Burnt him alive.
I watched the angel’s wings turn to ash.
I killed the love.
Burnt it alive.
Fuck love. Give me fire.
***
The sun is scorching the earth. Making the air I breath a hot, dry, 110 degrees. Life in the desert. 110 degrees is nothing to me.
I smell like I’m on fire, burnt flesh. But I’m driving the convertible as fast as I can so I don’t have to smell it. On this long, lonely, paved road in the middle of the desert, I can really open this rust bucket up.
I scratch some of the dried blood off my forehead as I look myself over in the mirror. I’m a shock blond. All white hair. It looks rather dirty right now however. The sweat, dirt, and blood act as hair gel, spiking it up, a gray mess.
I can see road and desert for miles. Just… nothing. Straight road. Dry desert. An occasional dead animal on the road. Road runners that didn’t run fast enough. Lizards soaking up the heat from the pavement that were too caught up in their cold blooded euphoria to notice the speeding tire until the second before it crushed their skull. That’s all.
I’ve only seen two other people driving down this road. And I’ve been driving all day. Like I said. Nothing.
The up side to that, of course, no cops. Since I’m going 70 above the reccomended speed limit, I’m sure they’d love to pull me over. A 26 year old, blood stained, naked white haired man nearly doubling the speed limit wearing burnt flesh cologne, it’s kind of hard to explain. Not to mention Neva laying next to me. Almost naked herself. She looks more like a skeleton than the girl she used to look like. Lost about 40 pounds since we met. She’s a god damn succubus, a fucking cannibal, but she’s still alive. I think.
I see a flicker of light about a mile in the distance. About time I see someone else.
I reach for my smokes, between Neva’s legs. She’s passed out on the bench seat, her legs resting on my lap. I grab the corner of the pack of cigarettes. I hit a bump on the road and the smokes fall back on the seat. I push Nev’s leg out of the way and grab a lung dart out of the pack.
I cup my hand around the end so the breeze doesn’t put the flame out. I just about light it when I hear that idiot slam on his horn. Dumb fuck probably hasn’t seen anyone all day either. I ignore it as a flame darts out of the tip of my finger. I’ve learned to control it, but the flame still burns. My hands are a blistery mess. As long as its not in one place for too long, I’ll be fine.
The first hit off the cig is always the best. Fills your lungs with gaseous cancer. Better than sex. Sometimes. That fucktard is still blaring his horn, waving at me.
The flame on my finger tip is starting to seer the skin. I bounce the flame around my fingertips. Roll it around my hand. Hide it like a magician hiding a playing card, making three reappear. Juggling them with my fingers.
I hate people sometimes. That idoit passes me. Shouts “HEY!” No more flames on my fingertips. But I still see them.
I rub some dirt off my side mirror with my thumb. I watch the three flames dance around the gas cap of the other guy’s ride. Seeping into the cap. Then foosh!
Gasoline is a flame’s best friend. Its a cheap hooker, or a frail little girl in an alley to a sex addict. Fire loves gas. Gas isn’t a fan of flame however.
That guy is lost in a giant fireball that used to be his car. Pieces fall from the sky as the flame burns everything inside. Cleaning it in a sick, twisted way. The guy probably died from the explosion. But hopefully he was still alive as he got surrounded by the burning red fire. He felt the explosion, held his breath, hit his brakes, and immediately tried to push the button that would release the seatbelt. The flames would melt the plastic button in an instant, making it impossible to release. He’d still hit the button as his hair singes. He’d run out of air, struggling for his life, and he’d instinctively take a deep breath. The heat from the fire would collapse both of his lungs. Then its a race. A race between blood and fire. Who will kill first? Will the lack of oxygen to the brain make him pass out and die. Or will the fire cook him alive? Hopefully the fire will win.
The car is just a red dot with rising clouds of smoke on my mirror now. I guess I’ll never know. The explosion woke Neva up. She lets out a mumbling giggle. She knows what just happened. She was awake the last two times it I did it. I smack her ass as I try to get this shit pile on wheels up to the speed limit plus eighty.
We aren’t running from anything. We’re running to the next chapter. I burnt the angel with the devil horns until he was a pile of ash in the incinerator. Or maybe he was the devil with the angel wings? I’m not justifying it as good or evil. I’m just saying I did it. It’s done.
The bitch beside me killed the she-skunk, a beauty and a beast all wrapped up in one, just like Neva. Two dead heroes. One in a casket, the other in an urn. Job finished.
Now, the road ahead is teasing us with the unknown. We don’t have a plan. Don’t care to. We’re just turning the page to the next chapter. Looks like the next chapter starts with an old roadside store.
I hit the brakes and glide this shit pile into the dirt next to the gas pump.
“Fill it up, I gotta piss,” I shake Neva until she gets up.
She gives me that look. That ‘I could kill you in a second, You know it, and you love it’ look. She scratches her scalp and in the sun you can see dirt blowing off her blond hair.
I step out, barefoot, into the dirt. Sand and rocks find a resting place in between my toes. I stretch, feeling the tense muscles in my body expand, hear several of my joints crack from being in one position for so long. It’s been a long drive.
I reach into the back seat, grab my jeans and pull them on. The last thing the guy in this place is a naked pyromancer.
I walk around the back of the car, watch Neva filling up the car in her pink underwear and tiny little white shirt you can see through.
I nearly trip over some fucking cat on my way to the store. I bend over and scratch its head with my blistered index finger. It purrs at me like its got a tiny little engine in its throat. The smell of burning flesh from my skin returns to my nostrils. The only smell worse than burnt flesh is burning fur. I really hate that smell.
Omnighost, Chapter 1: An Eternity In Duality
You know what sucks? I mean what really sucks? You spend three hours running through a dark city knowing you got two mafia hitmen right behind you. You hop over fences, run down alleys, duck behind cars, dodge behind buildings just to make it to your apartment. You close the door, lock it twice, and sit on the floor to catch your breath. You call your cat over to scratch it behind his ears. Then you hear a footstep and feel the cold silencer of a pistol find a nice resting place on the back of your head. That’s what really sucks. I don’t think anyone wants to die tired. I know I didn’t.
Seconds after I feel that gun on my head I was deeply disappointed. Not because I know I’m as good as dead. Don’t get me wrong, that’s no good news either. Growing up you hear that you get to see your life flash before your eyes right before you die. You get to relive the good times, the bad times, and those times forgotten. Quite honestly, I was looking forward to it. There were things from childhood that I’d like to see again. Too bad that’s just a bunch of bull shit. All I got to see is my cat, Kodiak, look up at me, let out a little mew. Then the room lights up from the flash of the gun for a split second. I see the dirty dishes piled up in the sink out of the corner of my eye and I’m gone. I guess that’s a sink full of plates that I don’t need to wash. I suppose death isn’t so bad after all.
The sound of the gun powder exploding made me flinch. Or maybe it was the bullet ripping through my brain. I opened my eyes and I’m sitting on a cloud. Not the kind of cloud my past drug use made me think I was sitting on. An actual cloud. I look up and notice I’m in both Heaven and Hell. See, there’s something else you’re lied to about. Heaven and Hell are in the same place. It’s just two different lines. One line for sinners, one line for saints. I’m sitting, just like I was at my apartment, right smack dab in the middle, light on the left side of my body, shadow on the right. I guess I’m in limbo. At least it’s scenic where I’m sitting.
On my left you got your Heaven. White fluffy clouds, the kind you try to find shapes in as a kid. Happiness and sunshine on that side, the whole nine. There’s also four people. Big people. Giants. Titans possibly. Like the ones in old mythology. The titans that ruled over the heavens. Or sat on mountains. Or whatever the hell they did. Whoever they are, they all have curly blonde hair and blue eyes. Swedish? Nah. Nice togas though. You got an older man with a crown, I guess he’s the king, God maybe. Could just be the security gaurd. The fuck if I know, this is my first day here. He’s sitting on a cloudy throne. Beside him is a woman with a crown. Must be the wife, not bad. I probably shouldn’t be thinking those thoughts considering where I am. I suppose a guy’s brain works the same way in the afterlife. Standing behind them are a younger looking guy and some chick. I guess that’s the prince and princess. I give them a nod.
Things aren’t as beautiful over on the right however. Dark clouds, and I mean dark. They look like piles of fluffy charcoal. Not the good kind of fluffy either. Fluffy like how your bed and blankets look when you’re dead tired and have to be at work in ten minutes. Evil fluffy. This side has a sun too, except its red. Not red as in a pretty sunset, red as in stained with blood. Lightning, thunder, the works. Four more people in some gothic armor over here. Straight black hair, grayish skin, red eyes. The right is definitely a smile-free zone. There’s the Prince and Princess of Hell behind the king and his throne. And he’s got his ball and chain next to him. Man, glad I don’t have to come home 10 minutes late for supper with that waiting for me. They got to be having some serious hate-sex to produce those precious little snowflakes standing behind them. I fake-tip my nonexistant hat at them and get on my feet.
So here I am, looking God and Satan, or reasonable substitutes, in the face, not sure how to break the ice. Two Jews walk into a bar? Nah, God probably isn’t for those kinda jokes. Maybe I should introduce myself. No. I want to move this party along.
“What the fuck am I doing here?!” I’m a simple and blunt kind of guy.
No answer. Please, please, please don’t tell me the service here is gonna be like at the DMV. I don’t want to be here for the rest of my… Oh, that’s right. I suppose I have time afterall.
After a few minutes of waiting they finally send a tour guide. Some white-haired old guy materializes about 100 yards away from me. I guess it was a materialization. I’ve never seen someone materialize, but he came out of no where, and starts walking towards me. He walks right down the border of Heaven and Hell with his hands folded behind him, wearing a robe. He stops about a foot in front of me. A little closer than I like them, but whatever. He puts a hand on each side of my face. Now it’s getting creepy.
“In this place, my son, you are like glass. Fragile. Transparent,” the guy calmly explains. “They do not answer you for fear that you may shatter.”
Glass, huh? I pull my head back. No offense, pops, but if some guy is gonna put his hands on my face I want a drink first, and a convertible.
“So what am I doing here?”
“You’re here because your mortal life has ended.”
“Yeah, no shit. I got shot in the head. I got that part figured out. But what am I doing here?”
“This is Duality, where the gods reside,” he says with a soothing voice. “When mortal lives expire, the soul drifts to either the afterlife of light, or the afterlife of darkness. Just where they go depends on the goodness of the soul. You however, as you said, are in limbo.”
“Wait,” I interrupt. “I never said I was in limbo.”
“Yes, but you thought it. Here thoughts are the same as words. Your thoughts are heard by everyone.”
“Um, did you all hear that thing…”
“Your thoughts about the King of Light’s wife?” He clears his throat. “Yes, we all heard that.”
I give Mrs. Light a nervous smile. Whoops. Well at least she knows that I think she looks good naked. I sure wish I would have been wearing a condom in that thought.
“So…” I say trying to pick out which of the thousand questions running through my head I want to ask next. “Why am I not on one side or another?”
“You see, Dante,” he knows my name at least. “You’re here because the gods are having a difficult time deciding where you belong.”
“Hmm… I stumped the almighty, all-knowing gods. Should I feel special?”
“If you wish. This is the first time in eternity that this has happened. So, yes, it is a special happening. Very much so.”
Uh-oh. Johnny Tour Guide here is getting awfully excited.
“Actually my name is Tamius.”
Yeah, thanks. Once in an eternity, that’s probably a big deal. With landing a one in infinity jackpot like this I should have played some roulette before I got popped. I could be a millionaire, you know, for a few hours before I died.
“How long is this gonna take?” I ask Tamius, or whatever he said his name is.
“Well, it’s hard to tell,” he starts. “They’ve been pondering this for hours now. No telling when they may reach a descision.”
“Hours? I’ve only been here for a few minutes.”
“Yes, but you’ve been dead for hours. Time on the mortal realm and time in Duality are two completely different things. There is no way to compare the two. Time here is both faster and slower than time where you’re from.”
It’s a good thing someone blew my brain out of my forehead because if I still had it, it’d be exploding right now.
“So these guys are trying to decide where I’m going. Why? Shouldn’t it be clear?”
“Oddly enough, no.” Tamius tells me.
I turn my gaze to him, expecting some bad news.
“You see there is a similar place like this in you,” Tamius explains. “Your own Duality. Each soul is filled with good and evil, right and wrong. Everything you’ve ever done in your life influenced the balance of your duality, even if it seemed neither right nor wrong. Even the tiniest things such as breathing. The gods have two lists that go on forever. On these lists are written a heirarchy of what is good, and what is evil. The Gods find the preservation of life the absolute best thing one can partake in. Afterall, the Gods’ greatest gift is mortal life. And as you may have guessed, the ending of mortal life is considered the most evil. Ending your own life is considered far worse than ending someone elses, however, both are rather bad.”
“Well I didn’t kill myself. So I should be good right?”
“Not neccessarily. You have done plenty of bad in the last mortal year of your life. Drugs, crime, sex, greed, worst of all, murder, the taking of mortal lives.”
Oh, yeah, there’s that. I could fell the mood begining to sour.
“I’m going to hell then?”
“I do not know for sure,” Tamius sighs. “While the past year of your life has been full of evil, the last week of your life was full of exceptional good. I’m sure you remember Candelaria Trevino.”
The little girl. What the fuck was I thinking? I remember her. Her face. The look she gave me, holding her teddy bear, as I pointed a magnum at her. I’ve never been that scared before. Not even when I had that gun digging into my skull. I can’t imagine what was going on in her head at the time.
“You didn’t pull the trigger. That’s what’s important. You decided the preservation of life was more important than your greed. You gained tremendous ground in the good half of your duality that night, Dante. The few days later you made more progress in bettering yourself by preserving your own life.”
“It wasn’t anything good. I was running from hitmen. I was being a coward.”
“No, you were making sure you stayed alive. It was a very brave thing. That almost evened your good and evil out.”
“I thought you said I was evened out inside,” I said, staring the King of Darkness in the face but talking to Tamius. “I ran from Valentino’s goons. That’s all I did for the last week of my life. What did I do to even it out?”
“Do you remember what you were doing in the few seconds before your death?”
“I was petting Kodiak, my cat.”
“Your cat missed you. To the Gods, all life is precious, no matter what life it is. From humans to mosquitos. While it may seem that it was just a scratch behind the ear to you, it was the littlest bit you needed to even out your duality. You are, were, all the cat had in its life. You left it alone for two days. That scratch behind the ear meant a lot more to Kodiak than you could possible fathom.”
I miss Kodiak already. For five years that damn calico was the only constant I had. Ugh. I can’t be getting teary eyed over a cat can I? Back to business.
“What now?” I asked. “The Gods just flip a coin. Heads; I’m in heaven. Tails; I’m fucked?”
“The Gods of good and evil are debating your punishment and reward now. It could take another hour, a week, a year. It might even take an eternity to figure out what they’ll do with you. Nothing like this has happened before, Dante. Whatever the Gods may decide, I’m sure it’ll be just.”
I have a feeling I’m going to be here for a long, long time. Maybe I should look for my parents’ spirits while I’m up here. Scratch that. My mom would kill me again if she found out I got involved with the mob.
After Dark the Last Child Cries, Chapter 1: The Genesis Seed
Have you ever been the youngest in your group of friends? They don’t invite ya to the cool parties because they are afraid they’ll get busted for providing alcohol to a minor. Or how about the youngest of your family, they treat you like a baby, your older brothers and sisters pick on you all the time. Think that’s bad? Try being the youngest in the world. Take it from me. It’s not good.
16 years ago I was born, like most, in a hosptial. The difference is, most doctors deliver 4 or 5 babies a day, if not more. The doctor that delivered me had five years of rust in the tank. He told me when I was ten years old that he almost dropped me because he hasn’t done it in so long. Good thing he didn’t, dropping the last baby born won’t get you any kind of good publicity.
The youngest people in the world, besides myself, are about 21. My mother told me that, 21 years ago or so, something strange happened. A purple light travelled around the earth, orbiting it from outside. At the time astrologers, scientists, and calmists said it was just a shooting star that got locked into earth’s gravitational pull. They said that the moon came to be in the same way. That it orbitted around the planet, gathering space dust until it got bigger and slowly drifted further away. They say our moon is still drifting, a millimeter a year, in 2,000 years it’ll only move half a millimeter annually. Then less, then less. But, apparently, our moon will be gone in a couple hundred billion years. It’ll get too big, too far away for the planet to pull it in and it’ll float off, probably getting wrapped up in Jupiter’s pull, or the Sun’s. If it drives around the sun it’ll evenutally get some space rain and, trillions of years from now, it’ll be another planet. I’m not a scientist, and I don’t know a whole damn lot about constellations, Orion, Ursula Major, and all that, but it sounds like they’re a little off their rockers, those scientists. But the alternative explanation wasn’t much better. The religious explanation is just as crazy as any other.
Priests, prophets and the like claim its a sign from God. God sending us a interstellar text message saying “Hey you down there, stop fuckin’ shit up.” They say God changed the world that day. My parents didn’t notice a big change. The ocean was still wet, California trees were still on fire, people killed other people for no reason, all seemed right in the world. The only thing that was different was nobody could get pregnant anymore.
The couple days after God’s Sign left the Earth fertility clinics started getting more clients. Then the next week even more, then more, until it snowballed into a world wide epidemic. They tried taking the sperm from the men and putting it in the egg, then putting it back in the woman. Nothing. Then they had the sperm and egg in a test tube, left them there until they made friendly with each other. Nothing. Then they went to sperm banks. Even that jizz was spoiled. Then they said it was the next stage of Human evolution. The male couldn’t get the female pregnant the same way. That gave every guy amnesty to stick their dicks in evey hole that they could find on their wives. Still nothing. Then there was panic. No one could get knocked up. Everything else in the world was fine, just no babies. At least all those orphans got adopted. But they seemed to make a huge deal out of it. I personally think it’s a good thing.
No one really knows if its a problem with the woman’s egg, or the man’s baby batter, or both. Scientists say that radiation from God’s Sign could have floated down and contaminated the ball sac of all the men on Earth. But a few good things came out of it. World hunger is ending, population problems are slowly being controlled, the Rain Forest isn’t getting cut down as much anymore, but there’s still panic. How is the earth gonna continue 50, 60 years from now. People will be too old to farm food, too old to put out fires, There won’t be enough social security for people to retire on. They’ll all be too shitty to give a damn about anything anyway. Eventually going crazy from lack of human contact. Maybe blowing their heads off. Who knows.
Then, 16 years and 9 months ago, during a time where people basically fucked on the streets because of the advances of STD cures, and because they couldn’t get pregnant, but someone did. My mother. Her and my dad were dating and one day she said those two words that no guy wanted to hear 21 years ago, but it was rare at the time, “I’m Late.” I don’t know if my dad shit himself or what, but apparently, I’m a pretty big deal. Doctor’s first thought that Dad had super-sperm, Godly come, The Genesis Seed. Then they thought my mom’s vagina was God’s salvation, but they figured it was just a lucky combination of the right sperm cell, and the right egg. With 400,000,000 white tadpoles per session, I guess its not too hard to believe that it was just a freak occurance. I suppose that makes me the world’s biggest freak. But some say my dad was the major freak. He didn’t stick around very long after he found out he had millions of microscopic superheroes in each nut. He went all biblical, started going around, showing the picture of him in the news paper, the one with the “The Man with the Genesis Seed” headline. Using that as a pickup line. I guess it’s a good one at least. The fertility scientists wanted him to stick around and study his sperm. But he was already gone, spraying it into all the women that would let him. He thought he was the guy who was gonna repopulate the world. No more kids were born after me. But hey, at least dad got laid.
My mother was killed when I was 12, almost 13, right after I passed puberty. The over-zealous religious folks took God’s Sign and the following world-wide infertility as God’s way of saying the Earth was too populated, that we needed to stop being fruitful and multiplying for awhile. They say, through prayer of course, that God will forgive us all and we’ll be able to reproduce again. As fate would have it, I was the exception to God’s rule. The devout decided that since no one could reproduce besides my mom, my mom’s womb must be the work of the Devil. Some sick fuck shoved a steel cross in her eye and through her brain when she protested that she wasn’t possessed by Satan. Talk about an exorcism.
I ran away from home, if you want to call it that, after my mom died. The fertility scientists that were at our house more than family wanted me to masturbate in a cup, to see if I had “The Genesis Seed.” To see if my pale army could bring an invasion. I never did let them find out. I was never interested in repopulating the world. Maybe my semen is the last hope for the world, maybe it isn’t. I don’t know, quite frankly, I don’t really care. It wasn’t my fault there aren’t anymore kids. I don’t feel like I’m responsible for making any. If my sperm even works that is.
The past three years have been interesting. Living on my own. Sleeping under bridges. In alleys. Where ever I can. Stealing a bite to eat. Trying to stay off the grid. The entire world knows me. Well, they knew me three years ago. I’ve changed a bit since then. There are search teams with the last known pictures of me of when I was 13. Black hair that has since been shaved. Kinda chubby, I lost a few pounds. Cute, boyish face. Now I could almost pass for a 21 year old. Almost. I’ve get recognized occasionally. Guys want pictures with me. “Look, there’s the youngest guy in the world! How about a picture?” Breaking out their digital cameras like I’m sasquatch. Women are the worst. They hear the stories about how I might be fertile. Trying to sleep with me. Their husbands or boyfriends offering me money to fuck them. Coming up to me with wine glasses and turkey basters. Hoping I’ll jerk off in the glasses, kiss them on the forehead, say something in Latin and tell them to believe in Jesus. Most guys would jump at the chance to sleep with 25-35 year old women. Pretend they have the Genesis Seed so they can get laid. But that’s not what I’m about. Not that anyone will hold up the statutory rape laws that used to exist 4 years ago. They wouldn’t care if my sperm wasn’t broke. Sure, my 16 year old hormones get the best of me at times. A guy can’t always say no. But, I’m careful. Spermicide lubrication. Pulling out and rubbing it in the dirt or into a carpet. Like I said, I don’t need to save the world. I have a purpose. I have a destiny. But it’s not to knock up thousands of would-be soccer moms. I’m looking for someone. The owner of the bloodstained cross in my back pack.
Every now and then I pick up a news paper, or a gossip sheet, and I see I’m front page news. I read about how there are man hunts for me. Thousands of people all over the globe looking for me. They’ll arrest anyone who has seen me and doesn’t give them information. Those papers and magazines call me The Last Child. Kid Omega. The Hope. The Demon Seed. Johnny Genetics. The Man With The Golden Sperm. Anything that will make a good headline. Not that my real name isn’t headline worthy. My mom, ironically, named me Revelation. Revelation Tristan Harris. Friends, or at least people who want to try and be hip, just call me Rev.
“Where ya goin’ Rev?” I’ve heard that too many times. Before I’d tell them. Then I realized they’d tell the cops. Then I’d give them wrong directions. Then I decided to start having fun with them. The religious freaks anyway.
“Rev, where are you going?” They’d ask.
My answer would be simple. “To Hell. Or helping someone get there.”
Afterall. I’m a wanted man. And I haven’t even commited a crime. Yet.